Here you can find lyrics and samples for Lyn's newest album, Energy Dance
All lyrics copyright Lyn Sawicki.
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1. Paint my Colors
2. You Have Stories
3. Happy Ending
4. Sad Huge Waste
5. Two Sandhill Cranes
6. I'm Fighting
7. Brave to be True
8. So Badly Hurt
9. If I Jump
10. Chain Reaction
11. One More Thing (I Don't Get About You)
12. I Simply Knew
13. Two Scarred Hearts
14. Energy Dance
15. Let's Pretend
people talk and talk
they go on and on
never get around to what is real
you and I are just like that
we never tell each other
how we really feel
but I’ve been looking at my life
and not liking what I see
every time I close a door on you
another door slams shut on me
I can talk and talk
and still not open my heart
so how could we ever melt the ice
that froze between us
I’ve been telling myself to be honest with you
but I’ve been too scared to take my own advice
and I am sorry
for the times I hid the truth behind my words
and even more for
the times you said the words I never heard
I’m looking for the words
to let you know how much I care
but how can you believe it’s true
when I tell you I’ll always love you
then tell you what I have to do
I don’t want to lose you
I want to be your brave true friend
but I don’t see how that can be
until I’m brave enough to be true to what I am
until I’m brave enough to be true to what I am
we start out fresh and high on life
but as time goes by
we get hurt shut down
then we don’t even try
to stay honest and brave
and that is why
I’m gonna start a chain reaction
I know how it will be
I will open my heart for everyone to see
and there’ll be one heart open
then two then three
then four five six and eventually
we’ll be living like we are human and free
and I will be happy I’ll be so pleased
we have our own truth we have our own light
but as the years go by
we get afraid make excuses
start believing our own lies
and then our light goes out
and that is why
I’m gonna to start a chain reaction…
our expectations start to seem too high
so as our lives go by
we settle for so little
then we don’t even sigh
for dreams so long forgotten
and that is why
I’m gonna to start a chain reaction...
I’m a wildflower I live on the plain
I’ve braved cold nights I’ve thirsted for rain
and I have been broken I cried out in pain
then I gathered my strength and grew tall again
birds fly babies cry
friends die and we wonder why
we think we’ve lost our connection
we don’t understand
that no one’s an island
in this energy dance
I am strong granite I stand by the sea
I’ve seen the waves shake the sand the winds topple the tree
some wonder how long I will be
it’s a long time to them a short time to me
leaves turn hearts yearn
villages burn and still we don’t learn
that we get back what we give nothing happens by chance
we create what we see in our energy dance
I am a river I dance and I flow
I’m weaving my way between lilacs and snow
geographers map me to see where I go
explorers flow with me to share what I know
hearts break for love’s sake
souls ache and still we don’t take
time for each other we don’t take a stand
for kindness and justice in our energy dance
I am a woman I learned that I can
fall to the ground and push myself up again
I’m learning my strength I’m learning my worth
I’m beginning to know why I dance on this earth
politicians lie and then rockets fly
people needlessly die still we don’t realize
our right to be happy and the power in our hands
to turn evil into good with our energy dance
I am learning our strength I’m learning our worth
I’m beginning to know why we dance on this earth
so come take my hand let’s not miss this chance
to create a new world with our energy dance
to create a new world with our energy dance
I thought we’d be close
I’m wrong apparently
for I heard that you don’t even want
to be where I might be
I’ll survive
I’ll hurt for a year or two
but I’ll get my happy ending
I always do
I’m hurting that’s for certain
I’ll go on living anyway
where there’s life there’s hope
And after night comes day
I’ll survive
I’ll hurt for a year or two
but I’ll get my happy ending
I always do
I want to see you
but I’ll honor your request
it makes me angry
sometimes I think it’s best
I’ll survive
I’ll hurt for a year or two
but I’ll get my happy ending
I always do
you don’t know my purity
you don’t know my heart
if you did you’d trust me
we’d make a brand new start
I’ll survive
my heart may break in two
but I’ll get my happy ending
I always do
I know that you will find
joy and peace of mind
and when enough time has gone by
so will I
I am not living in the past
I’m doing right today
I’m in charge of my own destiny
I’m writing my own play
I’ll survive
I’ll hurt for a year or two
but I’ll get my happy ending
I always do
I will get my happy ending
I always do
suddenly I could see
my life and it was free
beautiful powerful and pure
and I knew what I will do
to heal this wounded world
I had no doubt or limitation
I was so joyful to be me
it was not a dream or my imagination
I simply knew what I will be
I simply knew
sometimes I hurt and feel afraid
and anything but free
but I have felt my life
and I know that I must believe in me
I had no doubt or limitation
I was so joyful to be me
it was not a dream or my imagination
I simply knew what I will be
I simply knew
I simply knew...
if I jump off this cliff
it’ll be me and the wind
there’ll be no one to break my fall
no one to understand
and if I jump
there’ll be no turning back
I know what I long for
but can I ask for that?
every day is another day
of being torn apart
but does that give me the right
to break a trusting heart?
everybody tells me to your own self be true
but when you owe so much
to the one you’d hurt so badly
it’s the hardest thing to do
I tried to see a psychic
but she wouldn’t give a reading
perhaps she didn’t like my question
or where my life was leading
I was searching for clues
but my truth lies deep inside
I’ve got to go in deep
beneath my fear and pride
every day is another day...
I’ve never felt so good before
so vibrant and alive
I’ve never felt so bad before
so selfish and unkind
my heart cries out
please don’t compromise
but it’s so hard not to
when I look into your eyes
if I jump off this cliff
it’ll be me and the wind
friends ask me how I’ve been
and then they go their way
if they stayed to hear my answer
this is what I’d say
I’m fighting to be open
I am fighting to be free
and to be a better friend to you
than you are to me
I’m unleashing my demons
and all of their negativity
and they’re coming at me one by one
they want to cage the best of me
they don’t want me to be free
people pass judgment
and then they move along
leave me trying not to play the victim
even though they think I’m wrong
I’m fighting my own battle
over my own self
I am fighting not to run away
or depend on someone else
and I am fighting for self control
so this rage won’t poison me
and for the courage to be able to
give and receive
and to be free
someday someone will ask me
is there something I can do?
you can try and be a better friend to me
than I am to you
and you can fight for your freedom
I’m fighting for hope and joy
for our humanity
it’s not easy but I can’t let these demons
get the best of me
we’ve been letting them have their way
and now our world is driven down to its knees
and that is why I’ve got to win
this war inside of me
this war inside of me
let’s color-code our reasons then
we’ll set them out on the window ledge
to warm in the sun watch them melt into one color
wouldn’t that be fun?
life is a cavalcade of seasons
light show a rainbow parade of reasons
living them one by one
setting them in the sun
watching the colors run all together
life can be so hard I know
sometimes we feel all alone
and sad so bad
but I know that we can change all that
life is a cavalcade of seasons
light show a rainbow parade of reasons
but it can be a tough way to go
all those seeds that we have sown
can make a hard row to hoe but we’re growing
we keep on growing
we keep on growing so
let’s you and I let go of all
our pretenses just let them fall
in a tumbling cascade a sparkling masquerade
let’s pretend that we’re not afraid
oh let’s pretend
that we’re not afraid
One More Thing (I Don’t Get About You)
I’ve been wondering
how have you been?
we used to talk
I thought we were friends
but it’s a friendship ending
even as it began
and that is what I don’t understand
did you see the moon last night?
wasn’t it beautiful? wasn’t it bright?
this morning I worked in my studio then
I broke for lunch
then I went back to work again
I’ve been asking myself
why you didn’t tell
me what was wrong
you told somebody else
is that the way you’d treat a friend?
that’s one more thing I don’t understand
did you see the moon last night?
wasn’t it beautiful? wasn’t it bright?
I went to see some friends I drove pretty far
they were happy to see me
some people are
I look in the mirror
and who do I see?
someone I really like
smiling back at me
and it makes me wonder why
you don’t like me too
that’s one more thing that I don’t get about you
did you see the moon last night?
wasn’t it beautiful? wasn’t it bright?
Jon asked me to play at the Thunderbird Café
and I told him that I
I told him that I
I told him that I will one day
lies come in colors
every time I tell a lie it can be seen
my colors get muddy when I say what I don’t mean
so I’ve been trying to keep my colors clean
but it is hard to always tell the truth
to let you see inside of me sometimes is more than I can do
changes come in colors
sometimes I cry can’t tell you why
could it be the moon that pulls around the tides
tugging at the changes I hide inside
but it is hard to always tell the truth
to let you see the changes in me
sometimes is more than I can do
life comes in colors
every moment has its rainbow hue
I paint my life in the colors of what I do
and what I say and what I’m thinking too
maybe you don’t see my colors
can’t believe they’re there
but I know they’re all around me
dancing in the air
violet vermilion sunset orange new-life green
I want to free them all keep them beautiful and clean
but it is hard to always tell the truth
sometimes to say what I’m afraid to say
is more than I can do
so I’ll keep on trying
I want to paint my colors true
beautiful and true
I want to paint my colors true
beautiful and true
I’ve been trying to get close to you
it’s hard work painful too
I’m not expecting you to feel the way I do
so why can’t we be friends?
is there something I can do or say
to win your trust make you feel safe
so you can believe that love can be
unconditional not about control
this is deeper than the body
deeper than the soul
You’ve been trying to push me away
I get the message but I’m here to stay
you did not create my love anyway
and you cannot destroy it
is there something I can do or say
to win your trust make you feel safe
so you can believe that love can be
unconditional not about control
this is deeper than the body
deeper than the soul
in infinite time infinite space
we’re alive in the same moment the same place
and if we don’t unite what a sad huge waste
do you sense our power and fear it?
I’ve been trying to get close to you
it is hard work painful too
I’m not expecting you to feel the way I do
so why can’t we be friends?
You can feel the way you do
and I’ll respect you
so why can’t you and I be friends?
I don’t see why we can’t be friends
you’ve been making me smile
maybe it’s your style or conversation
should I go out on a limb
try and pull you in
clue you in to my situation
I’m not free like I pretend to be
I have this habit of asking for loneliness
and then I get it
I’m the child who was so badly hurt
pretending not to regret it
I’ve been trying so hard
to mend these scars
but I’m still afraid of pain
so I try to hide keep it all inside
but I get tired of these games I play
I’m not free like I pretend to be
I have this habit of asking for loneliness
and then I get it
I’m the child who was so badly hurt
pretending not to regret it
you say you are my friend
but you turn with the wind I used to be a lot like you
then I landed on the ground
in this dirty old town
I’m putting my roots down I’ve got work to do
I’m not free like I pretend to be
I have this habit of asking for loneliness
and then I get it
I’m the child who was so badly hurt
pretending not to regret it
but my heart can give and receive
love
it really wants to
perhaps tonight I will let it
yesterday two sandhill cranes
flew into our yard
I knew when I spoke the truth
it would break your heart
when kindness and truth collide
everything gets torn apart
I wanted to run but I had nowhere to hide
I’ve got to stand alone and fight
I’m frozen with fear and trying to be brave
I am fighting for my life
your feet are heavy you can barely move
you’re carrying too much weight
spring will come I know
I hope it doesn’t come too late
when it hurts like this there’s no escape
you’ve just got to find your strength and fight
you’re going under struggling not to drown
you’re fighting for your life
then yesterday two sandhill cranes
flew into our yard
and then I knew we’d make it through
even though it has been so hard
then I knew we’d make it through
even though it will be so hard
it was my first big love and I was holding on fast
I would have done anything to try and get it to last
we were crying in the rain every tear was like an ocean
I remember those eyes and the water’s motion
I was young I didn’t know
what way my life would go
I thought the love that I was losing
was the best I’d ever get
and I didn’t think
I’d get over it
after that it was so hard to keep my trust alive
but I wanted my heart to survive
so I put a hole in my defenses
I wanted someone to pour into my senses
I tried and tried to give away my heart
but I never let go of the wounded part
I tried to be
the best that I could be
but I had closed down
emotionally
don’t need a lover to be happy
I know that this is true
I went on with my life
and I got happier too
and then I met you
I barely knew you when I found you in me
you must have been there all along
to be so close so real so deep
and now I’m carrying two scarred hearts
and underneath it all I can’t pry them apart
I don’t cry but I cry an ocean
I look into your eyes for some sign of emotion
I’m older now I still don’t know
what way my life will go
but I know my love is true
and there will be no getting over you
you have stories they frame your point of view
you must have thousands but I’ve only heard a few
maybe you need an open heart to tell them to
maybe you need a friend
that could be me if I’d slow down and listen
that could be me if I’d look into your eyes
I’m busy being me you’re busy being you
we’re busy being busy we have so much to do
we call each other friend spend time together too
so why do I hardly know you?
I need to slow down slow down and listen
slow down and look into your eyes
I live in my own world I don’t invite you in
I’ve been looking into this ’cause I wonder why it is
when I have so much to learn
and you have so much to give
this world is broken
body and mind
but we can put it back together
one friend at a time
if we’d just slow down slow down and listen
slow down and look into each other’s eyes
look into each other’s eyes